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[elucreh]

Well.

Well.

My grandmother is dead.

Wow. It doesn't seem any more real when I type it.

We've been expecting it for years, there were so many things wrong with her and really she just had a relatively painless/peaceful end (heart attack) and it's really for the best. Really.

Oh...

I can't seem to...to talk about it. Dang.

I've got to. Nothing is real that is not written about.

I'm so glad...so very, very glad...that when she called to wish me luck that I was patient with her and that the last things I said were "Thanks for caring" and "I love you, too." I just keep focusing on those stupid pink peppermints that she was always hauling around. And the sound of her voice when she was trying so hard not to laugh at me for calling her "Lenore" like the daycare kids instead of "Gramma 'Nore." And then the part she played in really one of my nastiest childhood memories floods into my head and I push it out because that's not the way I want to remember her or be thinking of her, especially right now. And then I'm back to the peppermints. I want those peppermints. Pepto-Bismol pink and tasting. About the size of a quarter and a nasty powdery texture to them. But they were her special pocket-treats and I want some.

And I want Amy and Kimi and Jess. I want my friends to be here, right now, and to have their arms wrapped around me while I cry.

Comments

[thalialunacy.livejournal.com]

:::HUGS:::

if there's anything i can do, tell me.

[wildebeth.livejournal.com]

Oh sweetie, I'm so sorry. *hugs*

[divadivine.livejournal.com]

::hugs:: I'm so sorry. And I'm here.

[thetreacletart.livejournal.com]

I'm so very sorry.

Take care of yourself.

[lina-granger.livejournal.com]

Are you doing okay?
It's never easy,even when you expect it...
Just stick to the thought that she is in a better place now,without pain and suffering...

*hugs*

[doctoraicha.livejournal.com]

i'm so sorry, honey. truly

[jane-rucker.livejournal.com]

My arms are pretty long.

Hug.

Jane

[kells.livejournal.com]

+huggleS+ I'm always here

If you want, my number is available, you can just ask if you want it, and I'm sooo sorry...

I undesrtand what it feels like. When I typed that around the same time last year, I couldn't believe anything I wrote, It was too unreal

[magnoliasouth.livejournal.com]

::hugs:: to you sweetie. I don't have any words that will be soothing to you but just know that you have support here when you need it.

[prettygnomeface.livejournal.com]

Aw mate.
*Hugs you*

KATINA READ THIS

[gryfindormia.livejournal.com]

It's me and us (that was Amy, Jess, Melissa, Chase, and Tyler from last night's get together) would like to come to the funeral and would like you to call me or someone to give details and stuff as to when to see you. I'm not calling your house because I think it would be rather inappropriate with your family and at this time. CALL US!!!!!

[maybeimcrazy.livejournal.com]

I am so sorry. *hugs* I know the feeling, except I will feel forever guilty because my grandfather died while I was in LA having fun...but like you said, I'll feel better because my last words to him were in a card I wrote him that was given to him hours before he died...my father said he read it and cried because it made him so happy, but sometimes I wonder if he said that because he knew it would make me feel better.

Anyway, if you need to talk, I'm always here. *hugs again*

[akazaam.livejournal.com]

*hug* what i said at the Riddles. love ya; we're here. <3