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[elucreh]

Jess--I'll try you in the Staffer-chat later, I'm just between classes right now.

Emily--Teehee. You made me laugh. I feel very flattered. And of course, prayer is always a good idea.

Suzy-gwen--you're a sweetheart to offer when you know me so little. I appreciate the past-experience story...it's helping!

Tiff--I love that coin idea. You're a darling. Thanks.

To MM and TC--you're both of you right. And I think that is what I'm drawing towards. Thanks for the ears and the good sound advice.

To Mary--Thanks for the support. It's a lot to think about, but I'm really starting to believe I'll make it.

To Ranee and Dave--thanks for the offers! You're very sweet to take the time to offer to help out.


Especially to Rox--who really is the absolute angel of mercy, common sense, and psychotherapy--who sat me down, talked me sensible, and let me overflow all over her.

Amiel--who gives advice he doesn't follow but is so amusing. You were just the ballast I needed for the serious tear-inducing emotional overdrive that was going on in my other convo.

And TC--who, although she was "too late," was there, and had a fun conversation to share with me.

So the scales are shaking more towards sticking around here, but being really scared about it. I've been praying and thinking and that's the way they're tilting. Let's keep it up.

Comments

[magnolia-mama.livejournal.com]

We're all praying with you, hon.

MM

[elucreh.livejournal.com]

Thank you. It always helps to know that.

[invisblegrl.livejournal.com]

It's okay to be scared. There's absolutely nothing wrong with it. I don't know how this works with you, but with me just making a decision, any decision, gives me immediate relief in the form of peace of mind.

So, hopefully, when you've made your decision, you'll begin to feel better about it. *hugs*

I think I'll be around this evening if you want to talk. I leave Yahoo on a lot more now than I used to.

[elucreh.livejournal.com]

Thanks, gorgeous. *hugs*

[bluedaisy62.livejournal.com]

*squidges again* Here's hoping you are confident in your decision when the time comes. ~T

[elucreh.livejournal.com]

Oh, I love you...

[zanymuggle.livejournal.com]

You see? Don't worry about having confidence in yourself - we have plenty to spare! All you have to do is ask. :)

After all, how many people can say they have a crowd of folks fighting to be the one picked to offer moral support (or is that morale support)?

[elucreh.livejournal.com]

Too true. I swear it made me feel ten times better to know how much you all cared.

[zuzuanni.livejournal.com]

How involved are you around campus? Are there any activities that you can get involved in? I know that it's harder now that people have made friends and groups and such, but those change SO much from year to year.

In the immortal word's of my dear friend Dan Barlow's cheesy music, (insert booty dance) "You can do it, put your back into it!"

[elucreh.livejournal.com]

*giggles at the booty dance*

I'll be checking out organisations next year, for certain. I'm minorly involved in my church group now, but I really need more.

[zuzuanni.livejournal.com]

aquire a cow suit. It always helps to break the ice.

Well, it worked for Dan!

[elucreh.livejournal.com]

Really? *demands to hear the story now*

[thalialunacy.livejournal.com]

You're welcome, babe. Glad I could be of any help at all to someone who makes me feel like a million bucks an overwhelming amount of the time. :) I don't pray, but you're in my thoughts. :-*

[thalialunacy.livejournal.com]

Erm, also--Mary's right about being scared. And Zu's right about campus activities.

:toddles off:

[elucreh.livejournal.com]

*giggles and salutes*

[elucreh.livejournal.com]

Thanks, darling!

You're worth a million.

[thalialunacy.livejournal.com]

So are you, babe. So are you.

"*#&$% stupid lj!!

[gryfindormia.livejournal.com]

I tried posting last night and this morning, but it wouldn't let me! So, in response to what Allison said earlier....

"I could have sworn I posted something on this topic yesterday, but it was along the lines of "call me to talk." And I lost your cell phone number out there again was about to call Joey (groan...) when I realized that that isn't your cell phone any longer.

Ditto to what Allison said. You know how much I would want you home, but stay at OU if it means all the previous stuff she had said, though summer at OU for a job would be boring as hell, though, if the campus is near deserted and all your friends there have gone. And also, don't you want to see the boys before they leave us for two years? The boys will be home until July-August at the earliest, though Colin might be sent off earlier, Amy will be home from Vassar until the end of August, I will be home, Kimi will be home, and Jess will be home, plus your big group thingy coming to Jordan Commons for HP 3 on June 3-4th. You made it sound like no one would be there at all.

This may sound absolutely stupid, but I'm just throwing out ideas: What if you spent the summer at Jenny's apartment? Where does she live? I can't imagine her being somewhere far like Magna or W. Valley, par example. Of course, you and Jenny would have to agree, but if you don't want to go home that badly... You're more than welcome at my place, you know that, but that would v. awkward with your parents so nearby and all. Your parents, I think, would easier let you stay with Jenny for the summer than anywhere else. You could tell them that you want to spend more time with her and it would be "fun." (I can't think of better excuses at this moment, hun.)

You have been in my thoughts and prayers, too."

[akazaam.livejournal.com]

i'm glad you're finally reaching the point of making a decision, whatever it might be. it really does help to just make a decision, any decision. it's the getting-there that's the struggle.

*lots more hugs*

goodness, i wish i could've been here when you posted all this.
<3

[elucreh.livejournal.com]

Just knowing you care and you want to help is a real blessing, sweetheart.