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[elucreh]

Zemenar, I think the fandom's cracking.

My fandom. Not just the whole big wide zillions of people, some of whom think that in cannon Snape is secretly dating Dumbledore, but my friends, my family, my life. My safe little corner.

I'm not going to comment on right/wrong, or defend anybody, or anything, but what the freak is going on? I'm obviously somehow missing over half of it. I don't want to get involved, but half my flist is throbbing and it makes me feel like curling up like a potato bug and hiding under a leaf. I want to hug all of you and I have a feeling--not a certainty, all people will say is things like pronouns--that by hugging one or more of you I will be offending one or more of you.

I don't want to step in. Even if I eventually figure out what it is that's going on, I don't intend to comment, and probably it's best that I don't know so I can continue being friends without making any judgements.

But I would like to take a small moment to insert a little happiness into the angst that is my friends right now:

I love you all. You and only you are what has got me through the year so far. If I hadn't found CM and through CM all of you I quite possibly would have collapsed in hysterics halfway through last semester. You've kept me sane and lent me your happiness. You're one of the most important parts of my life and I hope that we will get through this and be a stronger and wiser group of people because of it--I couldn't stand to lose you.

I feel like a little kid watching her security blanket being gradually ripped into shreds.

Comments

[gaineewop21.livejournal.com]

I feel the same way.
I don't know what's going on or who hurt who, and it's probably better that I don't.
If I could tap the fandom with a Reparo and fix all the problems, I would.
But for now, Lu, I will cling to you and my other friends.
Can I curl into a potato bug and hide with you?

[elucreh.livejournal.com]

Yes. That sounds like a good idea. *snuggles*

[leftsockarchive.livejournal.com]

Hi Elucreh,

I've been meaning to pop in, and finally I have the chance. I just want to say that I completely agree with you.

*Hugs back*

Rachel

[thetreacletart.livejournal.com]

I've been feeling that way myself. Everyone has life issues and the fandom has always been where I went to ignore the rest of the world. It hurts to see people you have come to care about hurting and not really knowing what's going on or how to fix it.

I think people just need time and hopefully things will work out. The rest of us need to be strong and supportive while others need to step back and take some personal time.

It will be okay. :o)

[elucreh.livejournal.com]

I hope so...

*snuggles with Tiff*

[elucreh.livejournal.com]

I know who you are, I just have no common sense...sorry, Lydia! The same snuggle to you!

[bluedaisy62.livejournal.com]

Exactly. You said that way better than I could. I guess we'll just have to cling to what is left and hope the rest gets sorted out. ~T

[ladyg-funk.livejournal.com]

I think what these bad experiences end up doing is also bringing friends closer. It gives us a chance to be supportive of one another...

I feel like a little kid watching her security blanket being gradually ripped into shreds.

That makes me sad to read that but it's so beautifully written. And I like my security blanket. *hugs* I know this is cliche, but we'll all get through this in the end.

[wildebeth.livejournal.com]

I love you, Lu. If this is in regard to what I'm going through in any way, feel free to support whomever you wish to. I won't be hurt as long as you don't bash me, or if you do...hopefully I'll never see it. lol *closes her eyes*

Seriously, don't worry about it. Like I told Rox, you crazy folks aren't going to get a chance to miss me. Even if I leave CM, even if I leave the fandom completely, I'll never give up my real friends.

Period.

[elucreh.livejournal.com]

I'm certainly not blaming or bashing you, I'm just kind of hurting because I can tell everyone else is and more because they're blaming each other. I hurt for you, because I can tell you're feeling badly.

I know you'd never let me lose you...if you tried I'd have to hunt you down, lol. I love you.

[wildebeth.livejournal.com]

Oh, I know you're not bashing me, hon. Just teasing. :)

Hunt me down? *pictures you in Safari gear with a machete*

O.O

:P

[elucreh.livejournal.com]

Only if I could get it in something else. Khaki is so not my color. :-P

[reila.livejournal.com]

I feel the same way. I'm so lost myself. And it makes me hurt too, when others are hurting. I just want everyone to be happy.

[reila.livejournal.com]

I feel the same way. I'm so lost myself. And it makes me hurt too, when others are hurting. I just want everyone to be happy.

Katina!?

[gryfindormia.livejournal.com]

I'm not a part of your fan world, but I'm your friend too, and deathly worried. What in Tom Vladimir is going on!!?!??

Re: Katina!?

[akazaam.livejournal.com]

ditto..

[thalialunacy.livejournal.com]

I adore you, Lu. You know that. And I am so sad that my (and other people's) shit affected you, when that was the opposite of my intent. Live and learn, I guess. I just hope you'll forgive me. Because what would I do without my OBiAC counterpart, eh? :squidges endlessly:

[elucreh.livejournal.com]

You know...I have not at all connected you with this latest bit. You seem to have healed a great deal and at least your troubles only affected you and did not ricochet off sixteen other people.

Everybody seems to be getting back to normal, for which I am grateful. Up for a chat? Thursday, maybe? I have no time of my own till then, two deadlines...*groan*

[elucreh.livejournal.com]

I've missed you, you know.

[thalialunacy.livejournal.com]

:squeaks: That was awfully megalomaniacal of me, wasn't it? >.< Then I suppose we must be talking about different 'latest bits,' cause I sure did affect at least three other people. o.o Not quite sixteen, but hey, I can aspire to greatness. :P

Aye, we do. Mostly. Some things have irreperably changed, however... but yes, I'd love to chat with you, about whatever you want. :) I have a deadline tomorrow too :cries: so Thursday or whenever sounds splendid. :-* Good luck with your due-things, dearie.