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[elucreh]

I spent this afternoon with the latest installment of a murder series, yelling at the characters.

Yes, out loud. I was alone in the house, so I let myself go.

I told Her that she didn't come even close to deserving Him, if she couldn't see how amazing He is and how incredibly incompatible and ridiculous a prospect the other guy is; I told Him that I would be more than glad to spare Him the trouble of competing (competing! ha!) and turn myself over to Him for life. I told Her mother that she needed to back out, and Her brother-in-law that a woman's cabinets are sacred, and Her partner's fiancee that he needs better taste. Then I went back to yelling at Her for not appreciating Him.

Meh. Wah. Books and friends and what seems like the entire world are conspiring against me to make me think that I want a relationship. Somebody to count on and snuggle with. Who can do sweet surprise things (like Diana for her SO) or get my jokes (like Norman for his). Or just be someone to call when I get home and I'm tired.

Even my older sister has somebody now, and while I'm happy for her, and Cimorene knows she deserves it and has waited long enough--I watch them together or even just her talking about him, and I get...wistful.

This is the longest a period of "wanting to have somebody" has lasted, for me...Oh, sure, I've felt the occasional moment when I've wanted to have a guy, but this "moment" has lasted a few weeks now. Possibly this is only a sign of leaving the teenage years, when I didn't really bother with guys as romantic objects, and entering the Next Phase of Life for a girl of my background, which is the Hunting For A Husband Phase.

I don't want to enter that phase until I'm older. I know I don't. It makes absolutely no sense to be HFAH when I'm still a teenager, for pity's sake...I don't want to be married until I've at least got my BA. I know this.

But I want to have somebody in my life. And looking for a relationship at my age, around here, more or less translates into "looking for potential Life Partner."

Piece of crap subculture...*grumblegrumblegrumble*

Comments

[thalialunacy.livejournal.com]

I have to read this novel now.

And fly there to squidge you to death!

:long distance glomp:

[elucreh.livejournal.com]

*glomps back*

It's actually the latest in a series...the plots are rather conventional, but I've grown attached to the characters. The first one is The Blueberry Muffin Murder, by Joanne (a?) Fluke.

[thalialunacy.livejournal.com]

:writes down: Neato. :)

[akazaam.livejournal.com]

lol! that's a cute name :)