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[elucreh]

*sigh* Last night there was a fight. Like all the other fights since I moved back into this house, it went so:

1) fight with Mom
2) fight with both of them, but primarily Dad
3) Mom and Dad fight with each other, but me present and the topic of discussion
4) Dad storms off muttering, Mom contrives to put all the blame on me
5) Angry LJ entry

Dumb LJ erased the whole thing, and if I typed it all out again I might lose it completely, but suffice it to say:

I AM moving out of this house. As soon as is humanly possible.

My father is being patronizing and STILL managing to shriek at top volume. This takes talent. I have a deep desire to beat him over the head repeatedly with a heavy iron pan. He told me that he's trying to be positively reinforcing, but can't find anything to positively reinforce. There was more of the rant on that topic, but I'll keep it to myself as I have to get to work.

My mother is going through one of her phases when she demands that she come FIRST in my life. And I'm sorry, but she doesn't. She can't have a conversation with me without making me feel either guilty or hypocritical (she insults me, my friends, my tastes, my beliefs about what's right, and/or all of the above, I defend them, I'm a horrible daughter and I hate her blahblahblah, or else I don't defend them and...well). If she wants to have my confidence she can damned well try actually listening instead of spending all our conversations picking apart everything about me.

And they've been reading self-help books again. I am completely mystified by their confidence in the things when EVERY SINGLE TIME they've tried the things in the past, they've backfired.

Comments

[wahlee-98.livejournal.com]

Room still available. Furnished. (Well, there's a bed and a dresser. You'll need to bring a lamp, 'cause there's no overhead light. And bookshelves.)It's in Draper, in those townhouses they built right next to Magic Waters.

[elucreh.livejournal.com]

Can I make an appointment to see it? When might you be around?

[magnolia-mama.livejournal.com]

{{{{{Lu}}}}}

[elucreh.livejournal.com]

*hugs back* Thanks, sweetheart.

[avenger42.livejournal.com]

Wow. That sucks.

I'm not sure I can offer you a place to stay (considering I too am living at home) but if you come out here I'll see about getting an apartment with you, or at the very least finding you a place near my house or work. I do happen to know a lot of people around here, I'm sure I could find you someplace to live.

So, is Houston appealing to you?

*hug*

[elucreh.livejournal.com]

It might be, actually, if I could afford to leave the state right now. But I'm in the middle of a semester of school and I started this job just a month ago...

Thanks for the thought, anyway, sweetie. *hug*

[avenger42.livejournal.com]

It's cool. If things change, let me know. There are a few good universities nearby... but out-of-state tuition can be a real bitch.

In the meantime... you've always got someone on the other end of an IM if you ever want to talk.

*hug*

[zanymuggle.livejournal.com]

And while you're on the way to Houston, stop by the Dallas / Fort Worth area and give me a buzz or come crash for a few days. Of course, you'll have to put up with the 90-lb dog, the 90-lb son, the 5-lb cat, and the not-even-a-lb-hamster. Oh yeah, you'll get to meet the wife as well. :)

[reila.livejournal.com]

*hugs* That sucks babe. I'm very sorry. I'm sad to say I know how that feels. I can't imagine both parents like that though...but I do understand the mother thing. It's tough to deal with. And it drives you insane. I've wanted to move so many times that it's not even funny. I just have to hang in there a little longer. :|

*hugs again* I hope things get better...as much as they can. :\

[eviljen341.livejournal.com]

*SENDS MANY MANY MANY HUGS* If i had an apartment instead of a measly dorm room I would MAKE you come live with me. In any case, if you DO want to move out and you DO need a roomate, I'm here. I wouldn't mind getting away from certain people I live with. And I most definately like the idea of never having to live with my family again. Trying to be helpful...(tho likely not succeeding)

[thalialunacy.livejournal.com]

Goo. :hands you a lollipop: