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[elucreh]

Well, the other shoe just dropped. I knew it was coming. But I kept hoping maybe it could be staved off somehow. The millenium arriving, for choice.

In melodramatic whispers: He knows.

Long, long, LOONG story here...but in "apparently not that short," I failed my English class and got a D in Botany and I have a scholarship to maintain.

Told my dad yesterday. Now trying to figure out what the freak is going on.

I'm really scared, y'all. He's starting to say maybe he won't send me back. I have a 1.69. Slick is the only possible option with something like that. And I do NOT want to live at home. I don't mind the rest of it so much, but I do NOT want to live under that man's thumb.

Damn. Pardon my Klatchian.

On the other hand...maybe even he is worth putting up with. I didn't realise how very unhappy I really was until he said that and there was this feeling of relief. I know I have to get an education, but...I want so much to be at home. Even if OK felt a little more homey, it would be bearable. But I miss everyone so much it hurts...I let myself be distracted.

I'm at college. Away from the monster man and learning and living my own life. I shouldn't be so very eager to come back and stay back.

But I'm crying.

Damn. I've got to go.

Comments

[susy-gwen.livejournal.com]

I was reading wahlee_98's live journal and I thought I'd offer my sympathies. I know from experience how hard it can be when telling parents that you've failed a class (Trust me, it's harder when you have to say that you failed it for the second time.) SLCC isn't that bad, I did it for 1 1/2 years until I got my Associates and moved down into Provo (now that I've graduated, I'm wanted to move out again. If only I had money to pay rent *sigh.*)

Good luck!

pat pat

[jane-rucker.livejournal.com]

Hey... be calm, ladyfriend. I don't really know you, but... when I'm feeling a little strangled by life (which has happened a lot lately) I like to try to think that I'm on a sitcom, or in a movie, and that everyone's watching and rooting for me, and that it'll turn out alright and then I can kind of have a sense of humor about it and feel like it's an adventure rather than a spiral into misery.

Hope that helps.

Jane

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[elucreh.livejournal.com]

No, you don't yet, do you? You're a recent addition, although I'm sure we'll get to know each other as we go along...

Thanks for the advice and the support. I look forward to bringing you from acquaintance and heroine to friend.

[elucreh.livejournal.com]

Thanks. It just all kind of rushed up on me when I posted.

Are you a fellow Ohmyhecker? Would I have met you at the last Summit if I had the brains God gave geese?

[readerravenclaw.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry - I barely know you, of course, but I added your journal to my friends list so that I'd know when you were extra busy - and I just wanted to let you know that you have my sympathies.

If it's any comfort, I'm living at home and going to college - after being abroad for an entire year - and as much as I loved being independent, I know (something) of what you feel about missing home. I get along well with my parents, though, so I suppose our situations aren't really comparable.... Is there some way that, if you manage to fix up your GPA, you can move back into the dorms again? For your next semester, perhaps try to take classes that you know you can do well on - professors that are known to be easier than usual, a subject that you particularly like and isn't hard? And - well - what kind of English class was it? You're trying to get a degree in something literary, aren't you? You can obviously write, so unless you just didn't turn in your assignments, you probably just had a professor that wasn't right for you. I'm just throwing out random ideas here - I know nothing about your situation, not really, so feel free to ignore me - but I just wanted to let you know that I'm thinking of you. (And whatever you do, don't give up!)

[susy-gwen.livejournal.com]

Yes, I belong to the wonderful crowd. I was wahlee_98's roommate at BYU for 2 1/2 years although I've known her for more 10 years now. We did miss you on Saturday, but I'm sure that there will be another time when we can have a summit. *adds to friend list*

[kells.livejournal.com]

+hugges and gives you some chocolate+

It'll be alright, no matter what happens, you'll get through it. I'm not in college nor have I been, so I'm sorry but I really can't give any advice except it'll be okay, no matter what.

+stuffs you with more choclate and Ollyhay(Holly...my kitty)+

[maybeimcrazy.livejournal.com]

Oh, Katina, don't do that. Don't cry, because there's nothing to cry about, chica! If you want to go home, go home, for Pete's sake! Don't do anything that makes you unhappy. You deserve the best, so go out there and get it! Don't wait around until you're so unhappy you don't even realize it! You can do it, chica, I believe in you. ^_^