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[elucreh]

Well, so much for that. *sniffs* *sigh* I really, truly, honestly never meant to hurt anybody. Me and my sense of humor...The things I find funny are never meant to offend, but somehow they get read as sadistic. (I am not a sadistic person! I can't bear to watch people in movies kick puppes!)

I think closing the club was for the best. I still do not quite understand why it was so offensive, but I hate the idea of anybody's feelings being hurt by something I inspired, so it's closed anyway.

And apparently we came out just as some huge censoring harrassment thing did, which frankly explains why people are so edgy, so I can understand a bit better, but I'm still a bit hurt that people would misread me so badly...and all right, some of them don't know me all that well, but they know Thalia! And a lot of the others! I'm fairly new to the CM community, so if I was jumped on I can take that. But come on! Some of the OBiAC have been with CM practically since it started. Don't you trust them enough to take it as a joke?

All right. That was my "Yes, my feelings are hurt, too," rant.

But I honestly am sorry that we came out as anything but poking a little mild fun. I really do feel very badly that we drew any kind of blood. I don't know if this will appear on the friends list of any of the people I offended, but I hope it does and that you will accept my apologies.

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[claireyfairy1.livejournal.com]

Hi,

Sorry I only just saw this post :)

You know what, I'm really sorry this got out of hand because:

a) I didn't mean it to. My rant on my LJ was just that. A rant. I told the truth. I know that you and Thalia and Beth don't understand why I was offended. I tried to explain my reasons. That's all I can do. The irony of the whole thing is that it makes me look, in your eyes at least, like I can't take a joke. Nothing could be further from the truth, actually. I've been ribbed for my Orlando (and LotR, HP, QAF, whatever) obsession a million times over. I'm even prone to taking the piss out of myself for it. And, when I first saw mention of OiAS in Thalia's LJ, I thought it was funny. What do I care if others don't find him sexy? I guess I started to feel offended when the community was set-up and advertised at CM. It just felt that it was going one step too far. And in truth, whether it was meant that way or not (and I know it wasn't. I don't think anyone even thought of it that way), I took it personally because I am the only one on my flist that posts obsessively about the boy, not counting the people outside our CM/HP fandom. I'm sure there are plenty of other people on your flists that do too, but when I saw a post about myself, I saw red. Maybe that's a little egotistical of me, but there you go.

By the way, I hope you don't think I'm rehashing old issues, I just want to be clear :)

b) I don't want to argue with anyone. Truly. I just post my posts and try not to annoy anyone. But I *am* straddling two fandoms (as it were. LOL.), which is clearly a hard thing to do. It's raised some heckles, eyebrows and caused some backlash. I'm not going to change my involvement, I'm not going to apologise for it, but I'm also not going to be ridiculed for it. I'd have been just as upset if you guys had created a slash_doesn't_do_it_for_us community. I love it and write it, and don't want my friends laughing at me for it. I have plenty of friends that like neither slash or Orlando. We get along perfectly well.

Anyway, as I am prone to do, I have been very long-winded. Your post, and the closure of the community, made me want to just...explain things, I suppose. Also, I never thought that my one post would have people so freaked out. But that's by the by. Yesterday, after a day of thought, I got over it. It's not that big of a deal. It only becomes a big deal when you might lose friends over it, and I certainly don't want that. So, er, hopefully, we can forget all this nonsense and resume normal service?

[elucreh.livejournal.com]

Sounds good to me.

Honestly, I was more upset over the fact that I might have hurt your feelings than anything else...I'm always joking and hurting people's feelings and then I wake up to the fact and feel like kicking myself.

So I'll forget if you will.

Friends?

[claireyfairy1.livejournal.com]

Forgotten :)

Friends, totally. Phew. I'm glad all this is over :)

[lina-granger.livejournal.com]

Hi Claire...
I know this has nothing to do with me,but I just had to tell you that even though I thought your reaction was a bit too much,I can totally understand it.
It's so difficult to be constantly ridiculed at for things that make you happy,that sometimes it's just too much...Like you said,you just see red at one point.Can happen to anyone I suppose...

And for the record,I like your OB rants in your journal,keep posting about him! (you're the perfect source for me,both for pics and news)

:-)

[claireyfairy1.livejournal.com]

I probably over reacted. I agree :) But, well, what can you do. LOL. It's all done and dusted now, thankfully, so we can all be friends again.

And don't worry, I'll still post and spam everyone's flists hourly. LOL. Hugs!