Ramblings of a total Zack girl

Bad things about today:

- Woke up feeling like crap. Coughing, brow- and cheekbones solid block of pain, throat sore, aching aaaaaaaaaaaalllllllllll over.

- Suddenly realised I mixed up my drawn_to deadline with a different Important Date; have four days less to finish than I thought I did. Heh.

- My stereo has died

- My computer's disc drive is now refusing to work

- The job I thought I did so INCREDIBLY WELL in the interview for? Were supposed to call me yesterday. Did not call me yesterday. Which means A) I have to call them on Monday and B) I probably did not get the job. (I should stop tempting fate.)

- Weather prevented Talkative and Greekboy from coming up to play this weekend


Good things about today:

+ Saw a young!Patrick twin--including belly and a hat!--at the store while purchasing enough decongestant and Vaporub to choke a beluga

+ Appointment to play with Friendiest later today (even though probably I will wuss out and say, "Come drink hot chocolate and watch chick flicks, I have no energy", still, FRIENDIEST!!! I miss her)

+ ...that's it, actually. *sigh*


Bring on the medication and WriteorDie! I can power through this!

+ At school. Not dead.

- So now the class it took me tears of blood to attain just told me I CAN'T TAKE IT. None of the other classes I need are available AND open. I may have to take a class that has nothing to do with anything just to be a fulltime student.

+ I am considering taking Beginning Sewing, if I have to take a class for no reason other than I want to. I miss creating things.

- Boy, would that be fun explaining to my father. WTF, computer, why did you let me register for classes I am not eligible to take? For that matter, computer, why are ALL THE CLASSES I NEED not being taught this semester? WHY DOES THE GOVERNMENT HATE ME???

+ The two classes I have so far attended that I know I'll be taking are awesome. Storytelling and Why Languages Are FTW!!!!

- No internet at home yet; must sit on campus all day trying to get into classes, apply for work, and fill out forms about grants and scholarships

+ I have spotted two job possibilities; I have even spotted two job possibilities that I could do simultaneously. Two different two-day-a-week jobs, taking care of babies, little enough time that I could do schoolwork, enough that I might even be able to pay all my own expenses.

- My toilet and sink are broken; not inoperable, but leaking or else requiring superhuman application of force to flush. This means I have to contact my horribly landlady and be mean to her; I am not keen on it.

+ Tiny Mountain Town feels like home. Driving here, following the windy mountain road through the valley to the main street with its old buildings and Chevrons and crappy antique places, I felt like I was headed somewhere safe and familiar.

-Somebody has installed a mirror the size of Kansas on my wall. I'm actually pretty body-confident for someone of my size, but staring at myself twenty-four hours a day is probably a pretty good way to change that.

+I found some decent cheap curtains I can put over it, and I'm kind of excited to try pinning papers to the curtains like a bulletin board.

- You would not believe how the price of sticky hooks builds up when you need TEN MILLION of them

+ New roommates are friendly and sociable and willing to work around my food issues

- Omg, I am so bad at being sociable with bubbly little nineteen-year-olds.

+ There's a social life up here I could really enjoy, including babies and nerds. Friendiest is already well settled with a good-sized group that I think I can really get along with.

- I'm sort of bad at being sociable with people, period.

+ I am totallly signing up for the September WiP challenge

- My flist is at skip=100, and that's the emergency, I must read everything these people say filter.

+ I have all the ingredients for grilled cheese and chicken soup.



I PROMISE I WILL COME BE A GOOD FRIEND AGAIN AS SOON AS I HAVE INTERNETS AT HOME.

So somebody tagged me in the happiness-a-day meme, and I'm going to give it a go.

Only I'll do it for the day before, it works better.


Yesterday's Thing That Made Me Happy was beading.

I love beading; it's my favorite form of creating. I get to make beautiful things through pattern and repetition (my specialty, you should see the gingerbread houses I create), it's precise by nature, and people can wear the results! I can make beautiful things through careful planning and experimentation, and then the final step is mindless handwork. It says a lot about my mental processes in general, actually. *G* But I'm terrifically pleased with the jewelry I finished!



I watched While You Were Sleeping for the first half of my beading time (oh, this fic is gonna be awesome) and then Eloise at Christmastime for the second half. Shut up, it's cute.

Today I'm going to help a friend unpack from her move; before and after will be writing and then more beading and Christmas movies. I'm making my mother's Christmas present and my big sister's, this year. I'm actually set for presents except for my Gang gift and my dad's. I just love stretching into filling my time with creativity and helping people out and spending time with my family.


VACATION \O/

Things that are bad:

--I have now consulted with two fellow sufferers, a friend of mine who's a doctor, and my mother, and we're pretty sure my hand-aches are arthritis. Which in some ways, yay, because at least the typing isn't doing much to make it worse and I can stop worrying about that, but in other ways, crap, because, hey, taking breaks? Doesn't help much. I'm going to wind up with an ulcer, even with alternating taking Tylenol and Advil. Anything else I can do for it requires at least a month of regularly taking vitamins/herbs/weird pseudo-juices, and starting now absolutely does not help me get my papers written now

--OMG SO MANY PAPERS; dude, I don't have a metaphor for running the perfect family, okay? I JUST DON'T.

--My sleeping patterns are falling apart

--Gmail is being obnoxious and I don't know why



Things that are good:

--fic has been my procrastination tool of choice the past couple of weeks, and I have so many that are close to done. Yay! (Also kind of boo, because, you know, papers, but things are often this bad and usually I have nothing to show for it. I'M COUNTING IT AS A WIN.)

--bandom is running around being awesome at me, what with Brendon taking his Shane to New York and MCR being their dorky selves (I wish that I actually knew Gerard just so I could introduce him to a friend of mine, because with their mutual love of horror movies and zombies they would be happy talking to each other for hours; some of the lines from their blogs are STARTLINGLY similar; and while Gerard was distracted I could make a play for Bob, who is taking pictures of dogs and thinking about giving them good homes) and Pete--well, I was going to say "taking mildly disturbing photos involving stuffed animals," but really, that can just be summed up as "being Pete."

--when I finish these papers, and get my horrendous interview over with, I am DONE for the semester. \o/ Well, except for two exams, but frankly? I wish my whole school career was exams. I can HANDLE exams. Exams don't require any self-discipline on my part. I just have to go to class, and pay attention, and then show up for the test.

--my Christmas cards are as awesome as I remember

--I had a brainwave for what to ask my parents for Christmas. This is often difficult, because they always want to get me a) one big item, b) smack on price range, and c) not likely to add bulk to my possessions, because I move at least twice a year and the less I have to pack, the better. If the business were doing better, I would ask them to send me to Muskrat Jamboree or Duckon or just Out To New York To Play With My Friends, but the budget's a little too small, so I've been worrying about this for the last six weeks. The things my mother finds to guilt me about are sometimes beyond my comprehension. So YAY for the car stereo idea! And it will save me spending the next two years of driving up and down a mountain swearing at the iPod radio broadcaster.

--I have a seekrit project that fills me with glee

--the Geek Squad up here actually is awesome. Or, at least, the Ron Weasley look-alike who is part of it is awesome. He is as knowledgeable and friendly as Chuck Bartowski, he honestly is. He has my baby and she should be fixed by tomorrow, and I can go back to having an H and a Z on my keyboard. And having all my Panic photos within easy reaching distance. And being able to import CDs. I AM SO HAPPY I'VE MISSED MY BABY SOOOO MUCH.

Something TC asked me last night made me realise: duh, if I post about spending half a week in a falling-over haze, it's extremely likely some (or all) of you are worrying about me.

So here's the sich:

I am still having dizzy spells. How bad they are seems to go in cycles, which are three or four days from peak to peak. The doctor's first solution to this is to take me off my meds (because I REALLY NEED TO HAVE ABSOLUTELY NO MOTIVATION OR ABILITY TO FOCUS RIGHT NOW, THANKS, DOC) because dizziness can be a side-effect. (I don't get it. I've been on them a month. Surely side-effects should have shown up before that?) Ah. Apparently not. While it is a relief to know my doctor is not lying about this, it doesn't help my optimism about getting back on meds soon. *sigh*

If this brilliant solution doesn't work, I will have to go to a special clinic and have ten million tests done. Sadly enough, I am hoping this is true, because it means I can go back on my meds as opposed to waiting a month to start different meds.



I also fell down last week and chipped a bit of bone out of the palm of my hand. (Ow.)

I took a couple of weeks of almost no school/driving/moving in the hopes that this would help the dizziness. It didn't, and I can't afford anymore, so if you see me falling down in the hallways of the college or driving into a ditch, please stop and help me up/out. It will be appreciated.

(If you'd like to do the homework I haven't done, that would be appreciated too. Gah.)

Recently, I've been friended by a few new people. I was also informed by one of my nearest and dearest that she doesn't know where I'm living at the moment...and if she doesn't know, I'm pretty sure most of you don't.

So, here is a little introduction/review: Me and My Life

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Okay, so, if you have not been up on teh drama at home, this is the update, so you might want to give it a miss.

( Moving out, mother, and advice from various and sundry. )

Also, I need to start going through my stuff and deciding what can be thrown out/sold. I'll go through my books and I really will, this time, sell or toss everything I don't need a copy of. Books are heavy and require a lot of packing.